my brother was scrounging through the closets for some old school clothes last night. he needed some clothes to dress up for a church skit in fellowship tonight. he was going for the old-school punk ass look. haha.. was pretty whack. he dug up the old polka dotted silky dress shirts, the super baggy houser pants ( i'm talking MC hammer stylez ^^ ) the CM black fitted hat, bomber jacket, and the Doc martins. heh. he was stylin' alrite ;)
victor, my brother, is one dude who's really got his life together. lately i've been reading all these blogger entries about how the university-adult-working life is really getting to us. full of uncertainty and not knowing what paths we'll end up with in the future. i really admire my brother. he's 27, working for a great company with a good paying job, just recently got engaged, and is so active in the church community. i don't think he's ever been happier. and to know that, it makes me feel so moved and happy inside as well. vic's only been a Christian for maybe, 3 years? i think a little longer than he's known Nat, his gf. before he was introduced, i was the only Christian in the family. i've been a Christian since i was 11 ( i think? ) and even tho church always preached to spread the Gospel, i always felt funny bringing it home. who would have known my brother could be so strong in faith in such a short period of time and even baptized before me. i've been feeling especially guilty and low in faith. i haven't been to church in months. it just seems i get further and further away. but i only seem to try to turn to Him when i'm in need. when i'm at a low. i've done things that i'm not proud of. and this only make me feel even more guilty. i've been feeling very uneasy about my future as well. my future in the computer field. is this what i really want to do? sure it's something i'm good at, but, would i suffer being a code monkey for the rest of my working life? last night i was reading Pegger's blog. she's headed to calgary on missions for summer and has found an awesome job. she wanted to devote her summer to Him. her prayers have been answered. she put her faith in Him and He provided. He has a plan for us all. it must feel so amazing to be touched by Him. i've been so ignorant, i probably don't even notice.
"don't miss out on a blessing because it isn't packaged the way that you expect."
-anon.
posted by Emily @ 11:40 a.m.
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