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Finally got around to watching Snatch on my computer last night while eating a whole basket of strawberries and a can of whipcream. mmm.. YuMmmy. joan and i needed a night ( or two =P ) to relax before school really really hit us in the next 2 weeks. was a pretty good movie considering the last few min of the movie was cut off ( damn bootlegs.. ) and we couldn't understand what brad pitt was saying for most of the movie. but DAYAMNNN he's hot ;) =P~

joan and i had another one of those late night talk-till-the-sun-comes-up chats again last night ;) the usual topic ( of course ) : guys, guys, guys, what'll it be like in 5 years when people start pairing off and getting married, and love. i swear that we are so guy deprived that we've almost come to believe that we are incapable of love. it's already hard enough for us to really really like someone, let alone love them. for some odd reason we lose interest pretty quickly. either that or it takes us forever to finally decide and take the next step. i know a large part of it is due to our fear of being so vulnerable. when you like someone, you put your heart into it, and you put yourself in a position where they can really hurt you. when they go away, it hurts you that you can't see them and you miss them. i don't think i've ever really felt close to that. 'cept for when two of my very good friends went away to school. saying goodbye was one of the hardest things i had to do ( even tho i knew there would be some weekends where we'd all be back in T.O. ). i missed them so much it hurt.

i feel so isolated from the world. looking at my schedule i won't be able to visit home until Canada Day long weekend. it's summer, almost everyone is back home. hanging out together again. and having fun. while i'm stuck here. my bestfriend and another close friend away at western. and everyone else back home. i don't even know what's going on in their lives anymore.

i feel like i'm in prison.

posted by Emily @ 2:05 p.m.